This is something I have been thinking about a lot lately. I'm currently in the in-between stage, where I've realized how much I've missed out on because of different circumstances, while also knowing (hoping) that time will bring chances to fill those gaps and, like you said, experience life in its entirety. You really put my exact feelings into words.
I'm turning 18 soon, and it's... weird. I can't help but compare my own life's path to others', while also knowing my life has barely even started. It sometimes makes me happy to think of whatever may come, but it also sometimes makes me miserable to think of what didn't. Nonetheless, I will take this beautiful text as something more to hang onto these next years. It's relieving to know more people share this hunger for living.
feeling like you've lost time because of circumstances or your own fears is such a difficult thing to deal with but it's so comforting to know that we're not alone in this <3 i think these wasted years are useful in that it fuels you to really start living - i'm always trying to be grateful for all of it. thank you for commenting, hope you have a great day :)
I relate to this so much, especially the line of 'All the years I've spent wallowing in my room have now turned me ravenous.' Until mid - 2021, I was very much like your teenage self. The first time I realised I was changing was when I started losing interest in fiction and actually wanted to go outside. It was very horrible for me, because all my life I had never wanted to, so I kind of trapped myself in that habit, I felt like I couldn't do it. I'm in a much better place now, and every day I write about the lovely things I see. I yearn for the same things you do, and I love looking out the car window, I want to meet people who I can connect with, and I realise that I really do want to live.
this was SO lovely to read oh my god thank you for commenting!! i resonate so much with the losing interest in fiction bit. "every day i write about the lovely things i see" :") <3
This is one of the best things I’ve ever written. I relate to it a lot and shared it with some other friends who think it’s beautiful. You’re really inspecting and I’m glad you’re able to connect so much with the world now, that you’ve grown so much and also have so much love for your past self. I think you’re amazing. Thank you for writing this.
Never related to something so much, wow. I feel like I was meant to read this. Currently 19 and trying to figure out how to stop dissociating and actually be present in my life cause its having real life effects now. Its like my default go to escapism but I know I need to be more responsible for my life and my experiences now...just don't know how lol. I'm like, at what point does my life become mine.
I really liked this bro ! Especially because it was so different from my experiences tbh. As a teenager I spent so much time in my own head, locked away in my room and everyone kept telling me that I needed to interact more. That I needed to actually be a part of the world if i was going to actually become a fully functional adult. And I took it to heart and spent the greater part of my college years actively trying to be a part of the world, trying to have a life that had more exteriority than I was used to. After trying to make that work for almost a decade , at 28 I've reached a point where I've realized that teen me was right all along and I'm way happier when my life has more interiority than exteriority. So now when I read that line of yours "All the years I've spent wallowing in my room have now turned me ravenous." I instead think of how all these years of forcing my self to be a part of the world beyond what I felt comfortable with has made me ravenous for my own brand of alone-ness. But yeah, maybe its all about balance ? Who knows ?
This is something I have been thinking about a lot lately. I'm currently in the in-between stage, where I've realized how much I've missed out on because of different circumstances, while also knowing (hoping) that time will bring chances to fill those gaps and, like you said, experience life in its entirety. You really put my exact feelings into words.
I'm turning 18 soon, and it's... weird. I can't help but compare my own life's path to others', while also knowing my life has barely even started. It sometimes makes me happy to think of whatever may come, but it also sometimes makes me miserable to think of what didn't. Nonetheless, I will take this beautiful text as something more to hang onto these next years. It's relieving to know more people share this hunger for living.
feeling like you've lost time because of circumstances or your own fears is such a difficult thing to deal with but it's so comforting to know that we're not alone in this <3 i think these wasted years are useful in that it fuels you to really start living - i'm always trying to be grateful for all of it. thank you for commenting, hope you have a great day :)
I relate to this so much, especially the line of 'All the years I've spent wallowing in my room have now turned me ravenous.' Until mid - 2021, I was very much like your teenage self. The first time I realised I was changing was when I started losing interest in fiction and actually wanted to go outside. It was very horrible for me, because all my life I had never wanted to, so I kind of trapped myself in that habit, I felt like I couldn't do it. I'm in a much better place now, and every day I write about the lovely things I see. I yearn for the same things you do, and I love looking out the car window, I want to meet people who I can connect with, and I realise that I really do want to live.
this was SO lovely to read oh my god thank you for commenting!! i resonate so much with the losing interest in fiction bit. "every day i write about the lovely things i see" :") <3
This is one of the best things I’ve ever written. I relate to it a lot and shared it with some other friends who think it’s beautiful. You’re really inspecting and I’m glad you’re able to connect so much with the world now, that you’ve grown so much and also have so much love for your past self. I think you’re amazing. Thank you for writing this.
I’m really excited to follow you and read more of your works!!!!! I can’t tell you how much this piece hit me and how lovely and uplifting it is.
this means the world to me thank you so much!! <3
you make me want to cry 🥺
Never related to something so much, wow. I feel like I was meant to read this. Currently 19 and trying to figure out how to stop dissociating and actually be present in my life cause its having real life effects now. Its like my default go to escapism but I know I need to be more responsible for my life and my experiences now...just don't know how lol. I'm like, at what point does my life become mine.
I really liked this bro ! Especially because it was so different from my experiences tbh. As a teenager I spent so much time in my own head, locked away in my room and everyone kept telling me that I needed to interact more. That I needed to actually be a part of the world if i was going to actually become a fully functional adult. And I took it to heart and spent the greater part of my college years actively trying to be a part of the world, trying to have a life that had more exteriority than I was used to. After trying to make that work for almost a decade , at 28 I've reached a point where I've realized that teen me was right all along and I'm way happier when my life has more interiority than exteriority. So now when I read that line of yours "All the years I've spent wallowing in my room have now turned me ravenous." I instead think of how all these years of forcing my self to be a part of the world beyond what I felt comfortable with has made me ravenous for my own brand of alone-ness. But yeah, maybe its all about balance ? Who knows ?
tus escritos llegan a muchos lugares que tu ni te imaginas. Sigue compartiendo tus saberes a través de la escritura.
Aprecio mucho lo que escribes, de alguna forma alegra mi día♡, muchas gracias<3.
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